I think I’m going to be done with blogging.
When I first started writing this blog, I needed to write. I didn’t have an outlet. I couldn’t say what I thought or felt. Either I wasn’t brave enough to say it, or couldn’t identify it until I started hammering the words out on my keyboard; I’m still not sure which reason is the truth, and it’s most likely some combination of the two. Regardless of the reason, I couldn’t talk. This blog has allowed me to do that over the last two years, and to say in writing what I couldn’t say aloud.
But I don’t need it any more.
It’s very cool to be able to say that. To say that, right now, I am okay. I feel whole. Safe. Joyful. I’m in a good place. I feel healthy for the first time in a long while, and I even like myself. You have no idea what it means for me to say that. I. Like. Myself.
Over the last year or so, I feel like I’ve changed a lot. I’ve grown into someone else. Someone who’s a lot more comfortable with herself, and happy with who she’s becoming. I thank God for that, and for all the other changes he’s allowed to happen within me throughout the last few months. He’s helped me to do what I wanted to do. Let go. Grow up.
I’ve still got a lot more growing up to do, and I recognize this. Maybe I’ll start a new blog, at some point in the future. If I do, I’ll be sure to let you all know. Until then, thanks so much for traveling with me, and blessings to you all!
~Melissa
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