Thanks

I think I’m going to be done with blogging.

When I first started writing this blog, I needed to write.  I didn’t have an outlet.  I couldn’t say what I thought or felt.  Either I wasn’t brave enough to say it, or couldn’t identify it until I started hammering the words out on my keyboard; I’m still not sure which reason is the truth, and it’s most likely some combination of the two.  Regardless of the reason, I couldn’t talk.  This blog has allowed me to do that over the last two years, and to say in writing what I couldn’t say aloud. 

But I don’t need it any more.

It’s very cool to be able to say that.  To say that, right now, I am okay.  I feel whole.  Safe.  Joyful.  I’m in a good place.  I feel healthy for the first time in a long while, and I even like myself.  You have no idea what it means for me to say that.  I. Like. Myself. 

Over the last year or so, I feel like I’ve changed a lot.  I’ve grown into someone else.  Someone who’s a lot more comfortable with herself, and happy with who she’s becoming.  I thank God for that, and for all the other changes he’s allowed to happen within me throughout the last few months.  He’s helped me to do what I wanted to do.  Let go.  Grow up. 

I’ve still got a lot more growing up to do, and I recognize this.  Maybe I’ll start a new blog, at some point in the future.  If I do, I’ll be sure to let you all know.  Until then, thanks so much for traveling with me, and blessings to you all!

~Melissa