Anatomy was cancelled this morning. Today is the last day of classes before the college lets us out for Thanksgiving break, and because we all suffered through a massive lab exam yesterday afternoon Dr. LaCelle decided to give us a break and not make us come to class this morning; I’ve decided that the man should be nominated for sainthood because of this. Anyway, this means that Tae Kwon Do was my one and only class of the day; I’ve got to work until 5 o’clock tonight, attend a meeting at church later in the evening, and then I have to go home. I’ve just gotten out of Tae Kwon Do, and am feeling anything but good about myself.
I really struggle with Tae Kwon Do. I’m not the most coordinated person in the world, and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to make my body do what my head wants it to. I get the patterns and the moves confused. Even though my instructor has shown me them countless times, I still cannot see the difference between a turning kick and a side kick. I’m not that strong, or that fast, and I can’t jump nearly as high as everyone else seems to be able to.
I don’t do things unless I am nearly perfect at them. It just doesn’t happen. So to be required to take a class in which I am not the star student is killing me. I cannot stand feeling so awkward and uncoordinated, and looking like I have no idea what I’m doing. Stupid stinking physical education requirements.
Today was not a good day; half the class skipped and went home early for vacation, and so there were only 6 of us… which made me feel like I stood out that much more. It’s crummy to feel this way, and I wish that I just didn’t care so much. I wish I could tell myself that it’s ok; I’m doing my best, this is a new experience and I’m learning a lot. But I cannot make myself believe that. I cannot make myself believe that my best is good enough right now, especially when my best seems to fall so far short of everyone else in the class.
I’m feeling very ugly towards myself right now, and it does not help that I’ve got to leave campus in six hours and thirty four minutes.
i think if you want to start feeling more coordinated, start with something small.
like ping pong or yo-yo.
then build off of that.
i suck at TKD as well. and coordinated dancing is a big pain in the butt for me.
just take it slow. you’ll be fine.
do you practice at all besides in class? if so do it with someone worse than you. it’ll make you feel better about your skills.haha.
i am willing to help you if you’d like.
It’s probably because you walk on your tip toes.
You’re more graceful rather than having synchronized coordination.
Sometimes it’s good to see the things in life we are wired for and the things we are not.
I could practice until I’m 90 and I could never sing. Some things just need to be known.
Now you know you won’t be a star in any Jackie Chan movies.
However, there are other things you shine in.
Let your light shine where you shine brightest.
dont listen to larry, if you work with someone worse than you you wont get better!!!
i can teach you to dance? well a dance i learned in dance class
maybe it will help you be more coordinated
but im sure you will get it
Oh dear… this sounds so familiar. We perfectionists have a tough time of it when we run up against one of these areas where we do not shine! Just do what you have to do and get through it. When we perfectionists say “do out best” we always feel guilty because we know we always could have tried just a little harder. Get through it and move on and it will have very little impact on your life from now on. You know you will not pursue this since it is not a natural. It is once again society’s way of trying to make us all “well-rounded” and guess what? We are not! Not such a hard concept or much of a failing… who wants to be mediocre in everything? I want to be great at some stuff and just kind of ignore the rest! You can do it. We should concentrate on what we “shine” in… who else is going to do the excellent work in those areas? Not the mediocre-in-every-area, well- rounded people! shine on…