I’m going on a date tomorrow night; it’s the first date I’ve allowed myself to go on in at least a year. I’m nervous – terrified, actually – and this is making me angry. You see, while I am anxious over the typical first date worries – what if he doesn’t like me? what if I’m boring and can’t think of anything interesting to talk about? what if I have bad breath? – I am more worried about the fact that we’re supposed to be going out to dinner.
This means I’m going to have to eat in front of him.
I can count the number of people I feel comfortable enough to eat in front of on one hand. I don’t even really like eating in front of my family, for heaven’s sake… so what am I going to do tomorrow night?
The fact that I am frightened about this is what’s making me angry. How long am I going to continue to have all these ridiculous, distorted thoughts about food? I am tired of feeling like I’m stuck here, trapped inside my own mind, and frightened and worried about things that most people wouldn’t give a second thought to.
And I’m also ticked because my anger about having all these stupid thoughts and fears still doesn’t get rid of all the stupid thoughts and fears… they’re definitely all still there.
give the fear/anger to God.
He’ll take care of it.
Reading your post for the first time. I like the way you share – it’s fresh. I’m 48. Single mom. Haven’t been on a date in 7 years. Please do yourself a favour and learn something while your still young: if someone doesn’t like you it’s their loss and if people are looking for perfection they should introduce themselves to Jesus. This is the first year (6 months) that I’ve decided to let the fears go and not care. I’d love to know how the date went!
I have not cheated and read ahead.
If you are wondering how the guy is feeling, trust me, we are just as nervous as you and we are worrying about the exact same thing.
I am nowhere close to dating yet but I do like to hear about other people’s romantic pursuits.
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